I didn’t realize it at the time…
but the closest relationship in my life -
the one I thought was most important -
was with someone who belittled me. Constantly.
Someone who made me feel wrong for being who I was.
Someone who made me believe I had to change, had to shrink,
had to become more palatable in order to be loved.
And so I did.
I spent my life twisting and turning,
trying to be anything but myself.
I chased love.
I chased validation.
I chased acceptance like my life depended on it -
because it did.
And in the process,
I disconnected from everything real.
I was lost.
I was numb.
I was alone.
Until one day I stepped back.
Just enough to breathe.
It felt like the scariest thing in the world.
Because I was completely codependent.
But I knew that if I didn’t step away…
I’d never find my way back to me.
And once I had space,
everything began to change.
I started doing the work.
I started listening to myself.
I started building a life from my own truth.
And slowly…
the magic began.
I’m not writing this to tell you what to do.
I’m not insinuating you have to leave anybody.
But I am writing this to say -
If anyone in your life
makes you feel like you’re too much,
or not enough,
or like you need to change to be lovable -
Please don’t believe them.
Because they’re wrong.
It’s a lie.
You were never broken.
You were never too much.
You don’t need to shrink in order to be loved.
You just need to come home to yourself.
And if you don’t yet know how -
you can reach out to me… because that’s why I do what I do.
Because if I can come back from that place… then so can you.
Sending love wherever you are around the world,
Saskia x